7 Ways To Celebrate My Big Jiggly Belly Every Day

From magazine articles touting “10 Tips For Rock-Hard Abs” to discussions about which celebrities lost the baby weight fastest, bellies seem to gain in perceived value only as they physically disappear. In this atmosphere, the simple act of loving your belly can seem next to impossible. Even within the body positive community, we’re often primarily exposed to larger versions of the traditionally valued hourglass silhouette, i.e. the body shape with the proportionally smallest stomach. As I’ve learned to embrace different parts of myself over the years — from my substantial thighs to my ample bust — loving my belly has always been one of the hardest steps for me to take. Luckily, I’ve had a lot of inspiration to encourage me from the body positive community. So many plus size bloggers, Instagrammers, activists, and artists have created amazing work that encourages me every day to love my body and belly without shame. These women have taught me many different ways to care for myself and retrain my thinking. From flaunting my VBO to changing the language I use to talk about myself, here are seven ways I’ve learned to celebrate my belly, no matter what the world might say. There are few body positive acts more culturally fraught in American society than celebrating big bellies.

1. Say Goodbye To Sneaky Shapewear

Im pretty period and you are not the exception. I know for a fucking fact there are still men and women who tell people they are pretty for a big girl or guy, well im here to tell that its bullshit. You arent pretty in any catagory of life except your own, YOU AREN’T THE EXCEPTION. You do not need to be compared. You dont need to change. You look amazing now, dont you see it? You are all pretty period, there are no more exceptions. Got it? ?? *Mic drop* #BigAndBlunt #prettyperiod #flawsofcouture #torrid #skorchmagazine #torontomodels #torontofashion #torontolife #croptopsph #croptopph #croptop #croptops #bigandbeautiful #ic360curvypick #realtalk #sorryimnotsorry #effyourbeautystandards #knowyourworth #girlswithcurves #celebratemysize #plusmodelmag #plussizemodel #plusmodel #nobs #embraceyourcurves #ignoretheshould #fuckfatphobia #daretowear #fatbabe #goldenconfidence Thanks @photobynila for the awesome session. Also thanks to @flawsofcouture and @garcia.glam for creating the greatest top in the entire world. ??

A photo posted by Jewelz M (@jewelzjourney) on May 24, 2016 at 7:29am PDT

While I never really wore much shapewear outside of formal events, I basically refused to sport any underwear that wasn’t super high-waisted and smoothing for a long time. I wanted to minimize any potential lumps, bumps, or rolls, and nothing was more distracting than having my briefs roll down under my stomach in the middle of the day. It felt like a crisis to be able to see the line of my stomach curving under dresses or skirts, and I would rush to the bathroom to readjust all my undergarments until I felt acceptable again.

The idea of wearing bikini or hipster panties seemed absolutely laughable. They’d cut into my rolls! People would be able to see my belly fat! The horror! While I didn’t force myself to wear compression garments, I didn’t quite realize that my obsession with smoothing skivvies played to the same insecurity. The first time I wore a pair of low-cut hipsters, I was vaguely horrified. There was my stomach, hanging out without any fabric veiling its soft dimensions!

Eventually, though, I realized how much more comfortable I felt when I wasn’t constantly obsessing about covering and containing my belly. I am fat. My stomach is large, and soft, and jiggly. Obsessing about my underwear isn’t fooling anyone, and it distracts me from the more important business of living my own life. Now I wear whatever underwear makes me feel good, and let my belly do its thing.

2. Breathe Deep

The more I travel the more I realize body acceptance (ugh I hate that term) is so much bigger than we often think. Most conversations seem to be about size, but there are greater struggles than that. In Asia women want to be as light as possible avoiding the sun at all costs. In the America men are judged by how masculine they are. Globally people with abnormalities are assumed to be at a disadvantage and weaker at first glance. Weight is only one of a 1000 ways culture judges and defines the beauty of our bodies. Simply put, we have to think bigger. We must seek to break the stereotypes that in many ways make us comfortable and make it easier for us to choose who we interact with. If we allow our programming rather then our minds to determine how we feel about people, we are only cheating ourselves. We have to find ways to educate that value is not found in what is most comfortable, but rather what makes us think the most. It’s an impossible goal. It’s centuries of built up judgement and prejudice. It won’t happen over night. However it will never change unless we recognize that it has to. It begins with me. It begins with you. It begins with a single person waking up and trying to see things just a little bit differently. Let’s get uncomfortable. #inspiration #bodypositive #effyourbeautystandards #selflove

A photo posted by Glitter (@glitterandlazers) on Apr 13, 2016 at 12:53am PDT

For years, I took shallow, measured breaths, holding my stomach in submission to create a slimmer figure. I hardly even realized I was doing it, until I took a yoga class and my instructor taught me to breathe all the way into my belly. What a difference! I hadn’t realized how many subtle ways I was regulating my behavior in order to maintain the illusion of a smaller stomach.

Allowing my belly to take up as much space as it needs — to fully expand my body with each breath — is a small way for me to claim my right to exist comfortably where I am. It feels crazy to me that for years I changed the way I breathed because of body insecurities; breathing is one of the prerequisites to being alive! But even this seemingly fundamental part of life was secondary to my desire to look thinner. Getting my priorities straight has not only changed the way I feel emotionally about myself, but it’s shifted the way I feel physically, in my body, for the better.

3. Give Yourself Some Tender Loving Care

In order to love my belly, I’ve had to learn to treat it just like I might any other part of my body. I used to ignore my stomach, leaving it out of any pampering I bestowed on the rest of me. In my mind, there was absolutely no way I could make my belly look “good,” so what was the point? I didn’t want anyone to see that part of me anyway. My partner actually helped me a lot in this respect, because he insisted on touching my belly in affectionate ways, and seemed to enjoy all the things that had always made me hate it, from its squishy softness to the way it jiggles when I laugh.

After a while, I started to examine my belly without automatically falling into shame or disgust. I began to make amends, rubbing sweet-smelling oils into the stretch-marked skin on my stomach after showers, even taking belly selfies in the mirror. It made me sad to think of all the time I’d spent loathing this part of my body that did so many amazing things for me. Now, when I feel a burst of insecurity coming on, I try to get out of my head and into my body by taking a little time to care for my belly through massaging it or soothing it with pampering potions. Even though these actions may seem small, they’ve made a huge difference in how I treat myself.

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4. Consider A Tattoo

Almost ready for summer! #pineapple #tubbstattoo #graywork #roundoneofthree #beachbody #pineapplecroptop #croptopseason #teamtubbs #holytubbs #bellytattoo #fatswithbellytattoos #fatpride #fatpridetattoo #tubbsismypeople

A photo posted by fancydear (@fancydear) on Apr 27, 2016 at 12:26pm PDT

I’ve long been fascinated by tattoos; I even wrote a M.A. thesis about them! But I always put off getting one myself because I felt like my body wasn’t in the “right” kind of shape to showcase that kind of ornamentation. I’m currently planning my first tattoo; as you might guess, it’s going on my belly as a way to reclaim this part of my body, and as a giant “fuck you” to everyone who ever told me I needed to shrink in order to make others more comfortable.

If you’ve always wanted to get inked with something beautiful or meaningful, but like me, have put it off for an imaginary future when you think you’ll feel more worthy, remember that life is far too short to wait for permission to be yourself. If there’s a part of your body that you struggle with, consider decorating it with imagery that you love, as a reminder of your power to define yourself on your own terms.

5. Show Off That VBO

I just really like this look. And can we please focus on my sandals because lorddddd! They are amazing #vbo #summerready

A photo posted by Lyndsay Patricia (@plussizebarbiiee) on May 19, 2016 at 10:47am PDT

Quite a few plus size fashionistas and activists have written about the radical potential of embracing and flaunting the visible belly outline, and I can say from experience that learning to rock my VBO has been essential to my belly love journey. More than anything, accepting this aspect of my body that I’m supposed to hide with “flattering” silhouettes and slimming shapewear has helped me untangle the shame I associated with my belly in the past.

Taking something that is supposed to be avoided at any cost and highlighting it with tight dresses, crop tops, and slinky skirts reminds me that there is nothing inherently shameful or embarrassing about having a big belly. It’s just another fact about my body, like my brown hair and fair skin. I have nothing to hide.

6. Change Your Language

She can’t help that she is a FINE-APPLE!! Thank you for the inspiration @_megz_makeup_ and @juliabusatophotography Both are über talented and beautiful to boot! Go check out their work. Thank you for all the love! #SquishieFishie #mermaid #mermaids #merbabe #chubbymermaid #mermaidart #mermaidhair #pineapple #effyourbeautystandards #radicalbodylove #bellylove #chubbymermaid #fatandhappy #SquishieFishies #watercolor #fineapple #vbo

A photo posted by @gnightirene on May 21, 2016 at 9:05pm PDT

As part of my journey towards belly positivity, I’ve had to carefully reassess the way I talk about my body, both out loud and in my head. My own critical self-talk has been an extremely toxic habit in my personal life; looking in the mirror at my belly and mentally berating myself for being “flabby” or “disgusting” was at one time almost second nature to me. I hardly even realized I was doing it.

It wasn’t until I began purposefully trying to replace these negative attitudes with more positive ones that I became aware of how constant and demeaning my inner monologue had become. I try to pay attention now to the way I describe my body. This hasn’t been limited to the words I choose; the tone and intention behind my language is equally if not more important. Calling myself fat can be either a pointed judgment, or a neutral, even positive statement of simple facts.

When I catch myself in an internal spiral of self-criticism, I try to redirect my mental energy in a better direction. “I look huge” becomes “I take up the space I need.” “My belly is disgusting and unlovable” turns to “my belly is soft, strong, and great for cuddling.” Although this is a lifelong process that never really ends, it’s well worth it to strive to be your body’s own best friend and advocate, instead of its worst critic.

7. Embrace The Jiggle

Aside from the shape and size of my belly, I used to be ashamed of how mobile and jiggly it was. When I watched workout videos, the bellies of the trainers I envied were not only smooth and svelte, but they didn’t move at all. There was something so alluring to me about the rigidity of hard abs; the way they refused to bow to gravity or movement, reduced to a wall of implacable muscle. I wanted to feel that way — immune to nature and the common flaws of humanity; a lean, immovable force.

Of course, my belly is far from this hard-bodied ideal. Literally every part of me is soft and yielding. When I walk, my fat ripples and eddies, and my thighs continue moving after the rest of me has stopped. I don’t fight this anymore. Movement is natural. No matter how hard I might go at weight lifting, cardio, and diets, gravity will eventually have its way with my body, as it does with everyone’s. I don’t have to be hard. My worthiness doesn’t come from striving. For me, embracing my body’s natural jiggle has meant embracing ease, giving up the myths of effort and perfection, and coming to grips with my own messy humanity.

Although learning to love and celebrate your belly can seem like a risky decision in our body-shaming culture, it’s a deeply worthwhile pursuit that will radically change your relationship with your body. Once I began the process of accepting my belly, that part of myself I had always deemed most shameful, I gained so much more freedom to love myself without holding back.

Images: Mariah Carrillo (1); Kris Atomic/Unsplash (1)